what a CRAZY life i having now....

i been almost everyday face the book that i never does that before....
i feel so tired with all subject that i having now...10subject 20paper!!!fuck off!!!
everyday hafal this hafal that!!!back home at 1.30pm sleep until 3.00pm then started hafal until 9something if there are no tuition....then wake up at 1am studied until 5.40am then continues study at bus until 6.30am reach school then continues until 7am start exam....until 12something then wait bus....the crazy day gonna last three week this month!!!damnit!!!now left 3 more subject...but i cnt stand anymore...my brain blank off...my energy lost and i cnt even read anymore!!!oh my dear god....please help me....

A poem for You.....

YOU
its been 05 july,many things has happened on me
i keep blame on myself and the things that around me
i couldn't find the way out to let myself a way to live
tear goes and things still keep repeating happening

until one night,in a night just peace and silent
i stopped my walk and i tried to think back
suddenly i realised something...just something....

although i love you but now i know i should let you go
although i miss you but i know i should let myself go
even the memories are still but i wont forget
even you hurt me but i wont hurt others....

no matter how...you still...will inside my heart
nothing can change this fact
you now get back your freedom,you're not mine anymore
i will live inside my world and wont accept any hurt again

every relationship will not last forever
so,please dont simply make a promise that you can't made it
take care as this poem i gave to you my belover....

最怪自己太软弱。。怪自己太眷念，怪自己不会放开！！
有时，人算不如天算
就算你算的又多完美有多细心，到头来的事并不是你所算出来的。
心中酸酸的滋味虽说没关系但其实很想找出解药
心中的空虚恐惧虽说一点都没有影响到但其实它影响了我的生活
是痛的，心是如此的痛。。是可以感觉的到的！！
你狠狠的往我的心割去，你的话，你的眼神，你的举动。。你的一切在我的眼里都是那么的伤
为什么，为什么可以从爱变的那么恨？那么恨我吗？恨不得我的离去吗？
今夜的风冷到我心里去。。我知道我再也不能再感觉到你的体温了。。
我在这方上网而你却不是离我很远的地方上网。。我真的很想你！
明天你的学校有活动吧？放心，你会开心的。。你的选择是对的。。
放弃我是对的，对我狠心是一定要的，恨我是应该的。。。这样你就可以忘了所有的一切。。
虽然我坏但你永远都不会知道。。。我的心并不坏！！！我是爱你的！！[心真的好痛！]

耶稣求你拯救我好吗？拜托！！！！