Friday, October 30, 2009
they still not understand me.....
yesterday things still in my mind...still fresh...still cant forget...
the moment that i take back my trial paper...i faint...i totally faint inside my heart...
who can i tell..who can understand how i feel?..who...who beside me?
my tear fall...falling all how hard i tried...falling all how sad and dissapoint i had...
i cant believe i drop so much...it's really hard i tried...during exam..i dint sleep more than 5hr
but what did i get!!!is this what should i get!!....is this the standard that i have!!
parents kept scold for the all...the past..right now and future...how could them treat me like that?
they dint support me or either say some words to warm me...but keep made me down...
i already so dissapoint and sad but....they still throwing stone toward me!!!!
I'M SORRY!!!I CANT BE A PERFECT PERSON AS WHAT YOU ALL WISH!!
i just a normal girl...or i can said that I'M JUST A LOSER!!!
PLEASE....PLEASE....stop hoping from me...just STOP IT!!!
enough and enough...i'm stopping myself from talking with you all...
i'm stopping myself from seeing you all...i just dont wanna to hear any BLAME!!!
PLEASE dont give me so much pressure!!I JUST CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!
i'm tired FOR TRYING...FOR SACRIFICE...FOR EVERYTHING!!!
you all just dont understand me...since the days i start became a teenager...!!!
you all THINK WHY I BECAME SO BAD AND WHY I CANT TURNING BACK!!!
PLEASE DONT BLAME ALL THE PROBLEM TOWARD ME!!is not just my wrong....
!!!CHILDREN HAVE PROBLEM BECAUSE IT CAME FROM FAMILY!!!
the moment that i take back my trial paper...i faint...i totally faint inside my heart...
who can i tell..who can understand how i feel?..who...who beside me?
my tear fall...falling all how hard i tried...falling all how sad and dissapoint i had...
i cant believe i drop so much...it's really hard i tried...during exam..i dint sleep more than 5hr
but what did i get!!!is this what should i get!!....is this the standard that i have!!
parents kept scold for the all...the past..right now and future...how could them treat me like that?
they dint support me or either say some words to warm me...but keep made me down...
i already so dissapoint and sad but....they still throwing stone toward me!!!!
I'M SORRY!!!I CANT BE A PERFECT PERSON AS WHAT YOU ALL WISH!!
i just a normal girl...or i can said that I'M JUST A LOSER!!!
PLEASE....PLEASE....stop hoping from me...just STOP IT!!!
enough and enough...i'm stopping myself from talking with you all...
i'm stopping myself from seeing you all...i just dont wanna to hear any BLAME!!!
PLEASE dont give me so much pressure!!I JUST CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!
i'm tired FOR TRYING...FOR SACRIFICE...FOR EVERYTHING!!!
you all just dont understand me...since the days i start became a teenager...!!!
you all THINK WHY I BECAME SO BAD AND WHY I CANT TURNING BACK!!!
PLEASE DONT BLAME ALL THE PROBLEM TOWARD ME!!is not just my wrong....
!!!CHILDREN HAVE PROBLEM BECAUSE IT CAME FROM FAMILY!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
哈哈哈！！好傻的傻傻哦！！
哇靠！不用华语是不行的了，我的事情全都给看完了，虽然开这个BLOG是想要写自己的伤心却带给别人伤感，我妈妈的女儿啊！写在日记簿又怕家人拿来读。。真的够力的！嗨~~虽然今天没比前两天难过日子，但因为自己去找他，弄的又不开心了，真的自讨苦吃哦！！但我的目的不是要弄他讨厌我吗？所以他才不会对我那么好，将我就不会。。。。（秘密！！）啊啊~~~真烦人的东西！！笨蛋笨蛋啦！！干吗了啦。。（口是心非并不好受呀！！）但没办法，错在于我。。。我开始就应由我结束不是吗？很容易受伤的傻傻啊~~别再碰那种东西了好吗？？明明自己清楚明白一旦渗入去就无法换回了，所以阿~~回头是岸。。。（哈哈！！用的成语还蛮好笑的！！）船到桥头自然直嘛。。。！！！哈哈！！（明明就那么心痛不想被不疼）笨蛋啊你！！别人有。。。你要死啊！！（我还没嫁，还没发，还没玩够呢。。怎么舍得死啊。。哈哈~~）所以就是行不通嘛。。一个手拍得响吗？（尔？。。拍不响！）拍不响那么干吗还要拍？（哇~~哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。但他真的对我超好的那一种嘛！）那是因为。。你是他的姐姐咯蠢材。。。（但是。。。）没有但是了！他们是幸福的？！（干吗放问号？难道不吗？）。。。不小心打错不给吗？（。。。。。。。。。。。。。）
Sunday, October 25, 2009
aaa....MY lovely DO RE.....didi
wakao...so damn hungry and tired now...3.52am
6.30am sleep and woke up at 2.30pm
i guess my life style start get back to the old days that i miss it...
i could wish to live in such days also don't wanna to keep sleeping doing nothing
that will make me really stress and will be end up with sadness result in my spm
so i woke up and gave me some question to revision
4.00pm my brother asked to woke him up at 4.30pm
there are only 30min for me to get ready before he woke up..
times up...reach 4.30pm and he came up to me and asked to do him a favour
to complete the promise that i made to my two lovely DO RE...i do it.
5.00pm reach church...phew luckly RE is there accompany me
DO did not came at that time because he said that he wanna to play basketball
6.45pm finish and i go do something so i seperate with RE
while i'm doing something(dont think negatif!!!)DO found me..
i was surprise because he knew where am i..
7.15pm DO MI RE all in the church
playing..laughing..hitting..jumping
9.10pm youth service FINALLY end....
again...DO MI RE playing again...DO was so serious in playing guitar
while RE was tried to had some finger moving(piano)
and MI....DOING NOTHING!!
actually i don like to going to that church because all the time i'm alone
thank DO RE never left me one step..
they protect me...
they care about me..
they joke on me..
they bring a lot of happyness for me
10.30pm MI RE at easy way..but DO does not at there
i always choose for silent place because i does not like many people around me
talking...laughing...playing...doing stupid things(pic!!T.T)
11.45pm closing shop
MI RE walking...RE accompany MI back home...^^"
i was always though that the people who do so is the person who like me
but this condition is a lovely RE do so..i wonder why..haha
12.10am reach home..
i was so stupid why am i so selfish and never think about others??
i did not realize that RE was really tired and sleepy
yesterday accompany me until 6am and go basketball competiton and church
accompany me back then only he back home..his house is quite far from my house!!
after he back home he gave his gf a call for the all??i do not know...
2.20am DO asked me to stop the games because RE is really tired..
DO is such a caring and lovely person..he care anyone around him...
DO asked me said a lie to RE..for his own good...i do it but RE asked for why..
and then both of them no news..left me
i'm alone now..all the night is only have my breath..
why tonight are so different??there are more silence...more sadness..more worried
and now 4.32am i'm still writing..still hungry and tired...
what is in my mind!!!that was impossible...that was so terrible to believe it..
stop it!!!just stop thinking...breathing is still...and left empty..
that all for today 24hour stories...
"THE END"
6.30am sleep and woke up at 2.30pm
i guess my life style start get back to the old days that i miss it...
i could wish to live in such days also don't wanna to keep sleeping doing nothing
that will make me really stress and will be end up with sadness result in my spm
so i woke up and gave me some question to revision
4.00pm my brother asked to woke him up at 4.30pm
there are only 30min for me to get ready before he woke up..
times up...reach 4.30pm and he came up to me and asked to do him a favour
to complete the promise that i made to my two lovely DO RE...i do it.
5.00pm reach church...phew luckly RE is there accompany me
DO did not came at that time because he said that he wanna to play basketball
6.45pm finish and i go do something so i seperate with RE
while i'm doing something(dont think negatif!!!)DO found me..
i was surprise because he knew where am i..
7.15pm DO MI RE all in the church
playing..laughing..hitting..jumping
9.10pm youth service FINALLY end....
again...DO MI RE playing again...DO was so serious in playing guitar
while RE was tried to had some finger moving(piano)
and MI....DOING NOTHING!!
actually i don like to going to that church because all the time i'm alone
thank DO RE never left me one step..
they protect me...
they care about me..
they joke on me..
they bring a lot of happyness for me
10.30pm MI RE at easy way..but DO does not at there
i always choose for silent place because i does not like many people around me
talking...laughing...playing...doing stupid things(pic!!T.T)
11.45pm closing shop
MI RE walking...RE accompany MI back home...^^"
i was always though that the people who do so is the person who like me
but this condition is a lovely RE do so..i wonder why..haha
12.10am reach home..
i was so stupid why am i so selfish and never think about others??
i did not realize that RE was really tired and sleepy
yesterday accompany me until 6am and go basketball competiton and church
accompany me back then only he back home..his house is quite far from my house!!
after he back home he gave his gf a call for the all??i do not know...
2.20am DO asked me to stop the games because RE is really tired..
DO is such a caring and lovely person..he care anyone around him...
DO asked me said a lie to RE..for his own good...i do it but RE asked for why..
and then both of them no news..left me
i'm alone now..all the night is only have my breath..
why tonight are so different??there are more silence...more sadness..more worried
and now 4.32am i'm still writing..still hungry and tired...
what is in my mind!!!that was impossible...that was so terrible to believe it..
stop it!!!just stop thinking...breathing is still...and left empty..
that all for today 24hour stories...
"THE END"
Saturday, October 24, 2009
sUDDenLyyyy........T.T'''
23/10/2009 friday....night....9:30-12.00
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didi bring mii go dung boo oo...hahahah...so happy!!actually is really happy
because i kept staying at home and goes to tuition everyday
so good have a brother that still will remember got me this pity jie cant go out...
actually i know that didi is the person who sad wont show his sadness or anythings...
he will stay happy and steady...but today he dung bo kept lose but no win...
then i sense he got something(my sense is good...)but i dint asked...but when
nearest 5somethings...he told me that his girlfriend eating my "cuka"!!
i dint shock because i knew it....he so close with me of cause i know...i dont know
why i and him can be say as a "couple" by others!!even church aunty also asked him...
i'm speechlesss.....but still nothing can change US!!
WE ARE FOREVER DO RE MIIIIII!!!!!!!!
i'm so glad i got two great little brother,although they looked bigger than me
but they still calling me as "jiejie",i close with both of them because i feel happy with them
they bring many happyness to me..i'm very happy but i dint said it out...
because in my heart sometime...something no need say until so clear one...
we are DO RE MI...and NOV DEC JAN...hahahahahah!!!!!
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I know that the GIRL will come with him too...
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didi bring mii go dung boo oo...hahahah...so happy!!actually is really happy
because i kept staying at home and goes to tuition everyday
so good have a brother that still will remember got me this pity jie cant go out...
actually i know that didi is the person who sad wont show his sadness or anythings...
he will stay happy and steady...but today he dung bo kept lose but no win...
then i sense he got something(my sense is good...)but i dint asked...but when
nearest 5somethings...he told me that his girlfriend eating my "cuka"!!
i dint shock because i knew it....he so close with me of cause i know...i dont know
why i and him can be say as a "couple" by others!!even church aunty also asked him...
i'm speechlesss.....but still nothing can change US!!
WE ARE FOREVER DO RE MIIIIII!!!!!!!!
i'm so glad i got two great little brother,although they looked bigger than me
but they still calling me as "jiejie",i close with both of them because i feel happy with them
they bring many happyness to me..i'm very happy but i dint said it out...
because in my heart sometime...something no need say until so clear one...
we are DO RE MI...and NOV DEC JAN...hahahahahah!!!!!
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I know that the GIRL will come with him too...
(That girl i not so like...is J's k sis...)
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walao eh...is that the girl trying to said me??T.T''
what i had done??he just my didi and no more than that...
he although treat me very good but still just my didi aa....
jia wei,he and me are triplet,are bond and also can be said as "atom" (jia wei said de..)
why bu shuang me??T.T'' i dint do anything also lurr...not fair to doing that to me!!
well,she hate me but while infront of me still can act like nothing...
arghhh...really cant stand two face people...
if really bu shuang can
COME AND ASK FOR THE REAL MARR!!!
But one things i remeber so clearly..
he with that girl so close....
bu shuang..==
dont know why..
seems let me feel that actually they is couple..
but in front me act like friends and be with me
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walao eh...is that the girl trying to said me??T.T''
what i had done??he just my didi and no more than that...
he although treat me very good but still just my didi aa....
jia wei,he and me are triplet,are bond and also can be said as "atom" (jia wei said de..)
why bu shuang me??T.T'' i dint do anything also lurr...not fair to doing that to me!!
well,she hate me but while infront of me still can act like nothing...
arghhh...really cant stand two face people...
if really bu shuang can
COME AND ASK FOR THE REAL MARR!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
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